❝ Nothing can wear you out like caring about people. ❞

— S.E. Hinton, That Was Then, This Is Now (via thenocturnals)

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❝ I’m not heartless. I just learned how to use my heart less. ❞

— (via 1112pm)

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❝ You look like death. ❞

— My lovely colleagues

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Shame on me

Twilight is on TV.

I’ve never watched two people finding it more difficult to pull together regular sentences without sounding like they’re choking on barely restrained orgasmic implosions.

"So… uh do you… like uh… the rain?"

This artist speaks to my soul.

This artist speaks to my soul.

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Every time my hair receives a compliment.

turecepcja:

Tree roots winning their battle against concrete

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asylum-art:

 Hilla Shamia: Wood And Metal Unite In Striking Furniture

Hilla Shamia, an ingenious Israeli artist and designer, creates beautiful one-of-a-kind wood and aluminum desks and stools using a unique method that marries cold aluminum and beautiful pieces of wood.

To create these unprecedented pieces, Shamia poured molten aluminum onto logs of raw cypress and eucalyptus that have been cut lengthwise. The burning of the molten aluminum on the surface of the raw wooden log creates a beautiful black layer of carbon that creates a boundary between the cold silvery color of the aluminum and the wood’s beautiful natural colors and forms. Because the aluminum is molten, it runs into every crack and crevice of the wood, creating a strong bond and a striking appearance.

These are gorgeous. I dread to think how expensive they’d be…

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lovetheday:

beexgood:

I often romanticize about these types of train rides.

These are the type of train rides I write about.


Interrailling, soon. Very soon.

lovetheday:

beexgood:

I often romanticize about these types of train rides.

These are the type of train rides I write about.

Interrailling, soon. Very soon.

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❝ Strong and independent? I’m neither. I’m just being pushed along by reality, whether I like it or not. ❞

Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore   (via 1112pm)

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Love is worry.

Love is worry.

Honey and lemon. Paracetamol days are back.

Honey and lemon. Paracetamol days are back.

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Update

I haven’t written in a while. I haven’t posted much full stop.

Have I been busy? Yes, very.

We’ve moved out, into our new flat. It’s a beautiful place; liberatingly spacious after the last 2 years and filled with natural light. We live on the top floor, with a south facing balcony overlooking the O2 and Canary Wharf. We pay the same in mortgage/rent/service charge as we did previously in that batcave. We are home-owners and living comfortably within our means.

And if the things could just stop there, I can let myself be happy.

Instead, stress is creeping in again and it’s invading from all sides:

The flat, a new build, has problems. Warranty covers these but our housing association is proving difficult to get off their arse to sort them.

Job. New boss has been around for 1.5 months now. Getting better? Yes. Less stressed, certainly not. Last Monday in team meeting, I was told that my workload will double as they hand over the biggest channel in the business to my list of responsibilities. Salary compensation? Nada. 

Job-hunting. My mind half-in, half-out. Interviews to prepare for, presentations requested. I’m procrastinating right now writing this post. Am I actually interested in any of these jobs? I don’t even know.

And of course, the crux of everything, the familiar sinkhole every negative emotion ultimately returns to: family.

Past few weeks have returned to the dark waters of last year. Ironically, just as my CBT concluded. I wonder what those questionnaires would add up to now. I’m not letting the emotions run, there’s too much things to do. I berate myself, I hate myself, I shut off myself. I make sure I don’t have moments of nothing to do, even working from home yesterday made me cuckoo by the end of the day. But work has ceased to be a sanctuary of purposeful, meaningful busyness - and often I find myself wallowing in something similar to gloom and oblivion, unable and can’t be asked to dive into the darkness and get it over with, or slap myself stupid and yank my sorry ass out of it.

Feeling rather numb, and not just to pain.

I’d like to enjoy these moments of owning our new flat, our first real home. I want to care about the furniture we buy, the colours to match, the little touches to make it ‘ours’. I want to remember these weeks as the beginning of our life, of excitement and joy.

Not guilt. Not stress. Not being overwhelmed with everything - even happiness.

It shouldn’t need to be this way.

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"Blood Swept Lands And Seas Of Red" | Tower of London WW1 poppies memorial. Quite stunning. (at Tower of London)

"Blood Swept Lands And Seas Of Red" | Tower of London WW1 poppies memorial. Quite stunning. (at Tower of London)

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